Sometimes I get these cauliflower products or recipes and they are delicious, like cauliflower pizza crust. Sometimes, though, even with my best culinary attempts, the best I can come up with is well roasted, seasoned, tasty, well, cauliflower. Today was a yummy, roasted, cheesy cauliflower day. There was a time when I would have tried to force myself to taste something that was not there, denying to the end that it tasted like what it was because there had to have been something wrong with me when there is nothing wrong. Sometimes cauliflower tastes like what it is. It can’t taste stellar all of the time, can it? I wish it could, but would I recognize the pizza deliciousness if it was all that I had? Maybe life is like that, too.
Today was my family’s 26th day of social distancing ourselves. I miss my people. I miss meeting new people. I miss my old routines. I miss my children’s old routines that were a part of my routines. I know that someone is being helped because we are not going to all of the places we usually would go (maybe that someone is us), but yesterday and today have been the days when I have had to give myself some grace because I have had to have a few moments of silence and prayer and grief and breathing and writing my thoughts down about things I need to change so I don’t find myself feeling this way the next time my life goes through a major disruption.
I took one last look at it before I put it away. I thought about the person I was back then and how I can be kinder to the person in my new passport because I cannot love anyone else well unless I love myself well.
For now, the rain has returned to my corner of the Northwest. It came back in a major way. This morning I was awakened by the sound of it pouring on the roof. I was thinking about how much I enjoy the sunshine when I remembered that the rain brings life to all of the trees, flowers, grass and vegetables I enjoy when the skies are clear.
My personal life can be like that, too. This week I have been dealing with a lot of rain in terms of the conflict between my children’s need to test boundaries and my need to maintain sanity. At moments it has been a thunderstorm, but just like the vegetation, we need these episodes to grow and become the people we were created to be. If only it could be done in peace and quiet.
In the podcast I talked about the fun I had with my most recent Inspiration Wednesday Project, which will be featured in tomorrow’s post. The quote of the week is from Georgia O’Keeffe, “The days you work are the best days.” For the most part, I agree.