One of the worst moments I can remember as a child was a situation where I found myself dealing with the things people take for granted when they have designated you as the “good” kid. I found myself wondering if I was doing the same thing to Young A. She is such an intelligent, kind and talented girl that I feel like I have to push and encourage her so that she can be the best she can be, but I don’t want her to feel as frustrated as I felt.
These midnight bedtimes have GOT to go – especially since I have to get up in 5 hours.
14 What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food,16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead. (James 2:14-17, NKJV)
“Well done is better than well said.” (Benjamin Franklin)
Lately, (in addition to doing my regular life stuff) I have been figuring out how to take all of the notes, clippings, sketches, etc. and turn them into changes for my life. That’s the really gritty part for me, because I can be somewhat of a perfectionist and focus more on having everything done just right as opposed to having everything done right now. I will not let that stop me, and I know the process will be one of growth and discovery :)
I am having one of these seasons when I am scrambling to line up opportunities and ideas and exciting things are happening. Of course, I am juggling this with all of my other life duties. Plates are definitely twirling in the air, but it is a huge thrill. I really look forward to sharing more after I have accomplished some really neat stuff :)
Fall is trying really hard to come to the Pacific Northwest. We spent the vast majority of the past few weeks around 80 degrees. Today the weather was cooled down a little bit. Every time that happens around here, we get rain, but I don’t mind that. The contrast of the evergreens and the golds, oranges and reds is a wonderful thing in these parts, to say nothing of pumpkin pies and mulled cider filling the air.
When my children were little, I fought and fought to teach them the right things and allow the right things into their lives. Some days, I feel my energy dwindling in this fight. Part of it is that as they grow older, my children are becoming more independent. Lately, though, it feels like I am growing weary of these battles. I won’t give up because the stakes are too high, but I definitely need to take time out for long strategy session.
Is this me? Sometimes it feels good to know that my family is a priority and that I work really hard for them, but sometimes it’s sad and a little horrifying to think that maybe I’ve seen my last slice of pie. I don’t need pie, but I still wonder, will I ever get a generous sized slice like I used to enjoy before I had to share it with all of those lovely people?