inhale. exhale.

I sure do a lot of focused breathing these days. I usually do it when I’m about to undertake a major challenge. I am more thoughtful and focused about everything. I’m sure that is a result of the cleanse, which required a lot of focus and thought. I was really focusing and breathing when I was planning my trip home in August, just two weeks after my mother in law’s arrival, which I am not ready for, in any way.

I am going to postpone my trip down South until I get some details handled at home. I am going to go this year, I just want some things handled at home first. There have been indications during the past three weeks that pointed towards pushing back the trip, but last weekend I made a decision.  I was proud of myself because the old me would have made the trip anyway, dealing with the added stress of things not handled, just to keep up appearances. Which would have been good for everyone but me.

My mother was really understanding, but everybody was disappointed. I was disappointed, but I just have too much that is not done on my plate right now. I know I chose the best thing, because it will be a much more enjoyable trip (and who knows, maybe it will be less hot as a result – BONUS).