Lost.

Today I was outside with the kids and I felt totally lost. I have the foundation of knowing that no matter what happens, we’ll be alright, but there is nothing else there. I’m really working hard on improving myself, but to me it seems like most days I’m taking three steps forward and two steps back. I’m not giving up, but right now I feel really lost. Like I need to go sit on the porch at my mama’s house. And drink some sun tea. And figure out my life. Forget where things went wrong. Just figure out where to go from here.